2 Weeks, and Some Thoughts.

MAY 31, 2013

Last day of May, and how am I celebrating by seeing my little Brady Bug.  He is still holding stable, but did have a bone survey done (which if you're like me, you've no idea what this is... it's like an x-ray of all his bones).  They found out he has a corner fracture in his left femur (which isn't very fun, they don't know how old it is where his bones aren't mature enough to be very hard).  They also said that he has a low amount of minerals in his bones due to being preemie too. I was curious and had to ask and see if the fracture might be why his levels of infection were up. But they don't think so where it wouldn't stay elevated for as long as it has.

I did get to help bath him today, or really wipe him down and sponge him. It was awesome. Though he honestly, didn't like it very much. especially not when they washed his hair. But I told him he was a big strong boy and he needed to be tough. He even seemed to listen and tolerated it pretty well after that. :) We read some books. "Me and My Dad" and "If You Give A Mouse A Cookie", then I hummed him a song and talked to him a bit. :) I loved it. I even got to hold him a bit so that they could change his sheets (holding him at this stage is just lifting him up a bit, but still freaking awesome!!!).

I love being able to sit and have some alone time with him (Sam teases me for reading to him, and stuff...I think it's absurd to him), and getting to hold him and help; it makes me feel like I'm really a mom. Kinda let's that fact sink home, and I absolutely love it. I did find a work from home position with Convergy's; I applied.  I want to help make an income but I also want to be there for everything with Brady, no matter how small.

Sitting with him today, I felt so comforted. It's almost like there is so much in life that we miss.  As he's fighting this infection, he's still pretty happy, and he's only 2 weeks old.  I mean what have I complained about in the last two weeks. Breastfeeding/Pumping (huge pain every two hours ish to be sitting there forever to stash up milk and not let it dry up, but really totally worth it for my baby), having to drive further, the drivers on the road, etc...

He can't talk but I'm sure he's not complaining about his life. Such an inspirational little boy, and he's teaching his mommy so much.  She's so blessed to have him. I know he loves us, and he seems to be able to recognize my voice, which is so cool. I love it. Just cannot wait until he is old enough to come home.

I know life will through us a curveball, but we can handle whatever comes our way. thank you Brady for showing us the best in life. :)