Father's Day/Update

JUNE 16, 2013

So it's Father's Day, I'm full of a lot of thoughts about the men and boys in my life. But first, I will update on Brady. He still is trying to pass the contrast dye from his large intestines before we can do the small intestines to check for a leak (they left that out when they were telling me on Friday). They are trying to make it easier on his little lungs and have him on another medication to help...since his PDA is making it harder for him to breathe. The PDA is a vessel in the heart that is open in babies before they are born, and a lot of blood goes to the lungs through it. It naturally closes in babies once they are born, normally. Brady's still has not closed and is sending too much blood to the lungs which is putting too much fluid pressure on them and is making it harder to breathe for the little man. So it's taking more pressure to fill his lungs.

They will be able to fix that with either a medication (sometimes) or with surgery. But where he is sick and with everything going on with my boy, no surgeons would consider even touching that right now. Tomorrow he goes in for a head ultrasound, and will be getting his labs done to make sure his liver and kidneys are working. So that will be a not so fun day for my baby boy. He's still seeming to be upset with things right now not that I can blame him seeing as he's probably sick of being poked and prodded.

He will hopefully be getting better soon. That boy has definitely been on a roller coaster ride of ups and downs.

I know that it's been easier on me this time at points than it was with Bradley. But I know that both of these two boys are very special. It just so happened that one has already fulfilled his mission and was able to return to his heavenly home, where there is no pain, and no trials. The path is never easy and it will never get any easier.  The reason I say that is because just because one trial ends doesn't mean you are done, there are tons of things that you will be dealing with more and more. The trick to staying happy is remembering all the good that is mixed in with the bad.

I do have to say that I have been blessed with an awesome little family. Sam is a great husband, and he is a good dad. He struggles with the fact that we can't fix everything going on with our little Brady bug, but I know he truly loves both our boys a lot.  I know he truly cares about me, and we work hard together to make everything work. He is truly amazing. Not saying that Sam doesn't deserve one but I do need to say about my own father:

My dad deserves a shout out that I couldn't possibly give to the extent he deserves. I remember my dad when I was little being there for a lot of things, from soccer/basketball games to helping with homework, to teaching wrong from right. We've had our moments of clashing and bumping heads. But I have always known that if there was one person that would do anything for me it would be my dad. He'd be the first to search high and low if I went missing. I know that if I call crying he will do anything in his power to fix it. He has been there for me through the thickest of times and has shown me that I have the strength to stick up for who I am.  He taught me to take care of myself in a fight, not to start them but I sure do know how to finish them.

He taught me to follow my dreams and ambitions but that I did need to do it in a smart way. Common cents, cooking, cleaning and a million other things that I promised I'd hate him for making me learn- well let's just say I'm so grateful for him taking the time to teach me. I miss that car rides to talk about things, the trips to the store just to hang out with him... He's one super dad.  I mean after all look at who I am because of him and my mom. :)  Thank you Dad, you are amazing.